Well I kinda couldn't sleep - again! So after about an hour of trying to lie still and not wake Lovely Man I got up in the dark, fumbled for my fetching pink velour lounge suit and slippers, and crept off to the kitchen to put the kettle on! It wasn't till I got to the lounge and started to actually put on what I'd grabbed off the bedroom floor that I realised I had actually picked up odd slippers (I have 3 pairs). so picture if you will a slighty over weight, forty something (nearly 50!) woman, with bed hair, wearing a ghastly pink velour 'lounge' suit (it keeps me warm ok?!) one white furry boot and one grey and white stripe slipper with a zebra's head on it! You notice this post doesn't have a picture right? That's because this morning I want you to use your imagination!
So anyhow I sat here thinking about life, like I do from time to time. I started to write my book the other day. The one I want to write about Angels and the Laws of the Universe. And well, I got to thinking about stuff. Roughly 10 years ago I was at a very dark time in my life and although it often felt like nothing was ever going to change there was a part of me that used to dream. Daydream that is. I used to imagine being with someone who I REALLY loved and who loved me back. I used to imagine living a life in the country, painting and crafting and generally being happy. And then that's all it was. Daydreaming. Or was it?
Almost out of nowhere I seemed to get myself by the bootstraps and haul myself out of the bad time. I had lots of help along the way. Some of the help didn't seem kindly at the time, but looking back everything that happened had to happen to get me where I am now. Where I needed to be. Where I dreamed about being.
So here I am in a new country living on the edge of the wilderness, painting and crafting. Writing and getting paid for it - still can't believe that one! I have a man who makes me just SO happy - Lovely Man- and it's a million times better than I ever dreamed of! I dreamed of an English country cottage with roses in the garden, that evolved to living near a lake in Canada. I dreamed of not having to go out to work but instead work at home. We both dreamed of living in a small community, and playing a part in it, being able to do stuff we didn't seem to have time for before. And OH BOY just look what we got! A house, on the edge of the bush - literally - in a small, close community, with three lakes! A town where everyone knows everyone, where people like to stop and chat. A place where we can get involved because we have the time. As for there being 'nothing to do' in a small northern town, nothing could be further from the truth! We have had more invitations to functions and events in one week than we'd have in a year back home! The whole community has more going on in a small place than we seemed to hear about in the larger towns we came from! There's even a dog pound and a cat rescue in town where I have been able to volunteer to help out - that was in my plan too!
And as I started to write this post I wondered. Is it just because I was brave enough, or mad enough, to try? Did I just get carried along? Or was it just meant to be? Did I just attract it into my life because I used to focus on it so hard? See? Just one mixed up crazy kid!
And then I remembered. One night, about six years ago, at church I got a message from my uncle, who is in spirit, he said that I should be patient and trust, and that one day things would be better than I had ever dared dream of. At the time I just accepted it and hoped he was right, and then as time went on I held on to that message, trusting it to be true.
So to all my blogging friends, and non blogging friends too, I say don't be afraid to dream. In fact dream a little harder and more often. You may be surprised one day. As one of my new friends, Kassie, would say "Always expect miracles".
